Today I went to temple to accompany a friend of mine.
Another reason why I accompanied was I was also equally disturbed with the way things are turning up. Sometime back I read somewhere that ,one lesson that life teaches is that there would be a bandwidth of time during which everything that you do would be seen from a negative angle by every one.
However hard you try to put things in place they still seem to be placed OUT of Place to everyone.
Leaving that a side as I finished my darshan and sat on the steps to relax mentally, there turned up an Elderly gentleman who was asking all the devotees to complete a form which required you to chant the mantra and write it (I really do not know the reason for this act but iam of the opinion that people write 108 times and multiple 108 times for a strong belief which iam not certain about.).
With No offence meant I replied to him that iam no mood to write it, as I was already perturbed by some other issues. With an aggressive tone he gave me 4 slips and said “Fill as much as u can in 10 minutes, Just write for 10 minutes”.
Unwillingly I accepted the form and started to fill it.
After 10 minutes I found that I wasn’t able to concentrate on the work that iam doing. I wrote it barely 20 times.
My mind kept on wandering around many other issues and I saw that the man’s way of asking people to fill the form was not the way it should have meant to be. People come to temple because of 2 F’s one is Faith and the other Fear. I don’t know if most of you would agree with the Fear part. And hence people were writing because of their own F.
After 45 minutes my mind was not co-operating to perform an act in which my heart wasn’t involved in. Reluctantly I went to the Elderly gentleman , handed over him the sheet and said that I couldn’t complete the sheet . To my surprise the man started to shout at me for not completing it.
I explained him that I was in no mood to write it, and he reverted that u have wasted a sheet and no one else would complete this sheet.
There were people who were taking the sheets to home saying that they would complete them and get them back next day.I am not sure how many of those sheets would find their way back in a completed format. Also I am not sure how many of them would not waste those sheets.
The Sole purpose of this act as I understand should be to involve as many devotees as possible to write the mantra 1 crore times and spread the belief. In that sense I have contributed 21 times from my end.
I rebuted to his comments saying that he should not bank upon peoples F, if they really intend to co-operate they would come and do it willingly rather than he forcing a pen and 4 sheets in their hand.
I personally felt sorry for my attitude, but I was equally annoyed with the way he was handling the issue.:-(
