Vamsi calling Vamsi...

Dear Vamsi,

Surviving the past 5 months has been a grueling effort. Stranded alone amidst nothing , always hoping that on the next turn there would be a ray of hope.

Trying to enter every road alas none of the roads left to any place.

Spending time only with me had been a harrowing ordeal.

Avoided blogging, Stopped catching up frenz and relatives (Cant explain what iam afraid off), while some of the people even attributed this change of mine to an altogether different factor...and i admit here that it had no influence on wat so ever for me to distance from everyone.

Eating with,Sleeping with,Talking to only one person ie., ME.

My very own frenz regarding whom i wrote Recommendations, testimonials,reserved movie tickets,paid for parties, took to shopping, boosted their morale, offered career guidance, Financial support occasionally, best pals since kindergarten, are to be seen no where.

The very same people who complimented that my smile is my USP, are in no mood to bring that cheer on my face.

I Should Change. I should also think about myself. I shouldn't act proactively to help someone who is all alone.

I never knew that the other side of life would be so rustic,demeaning and debilitating , wherein people will help only if they get something in return.

I am tired of asking the same question again and again "What was my fault that lyf overthrew me from my track ? "

Life is a lesson that takes test first and then teaches a lesson - a quote that fixed on my study table as a post-it note to rejuvenate myself. But waking up every day morning to see the same note there had become so monotonous that even that quote isnt making me run on my heels.

After some time u get addicted to it and there isn't any excitement that it pumps in u.

After 5 months , i felt this week was going to change and get me back to my gud old days, i guess i was asking too much from life, may b the time has not yet come for my troubles to leave me.

while Mom,Sis,D and Sra1 try to boost my spirits along with their silent support , I dream of a day when i would stumble upon this letter to myself and roll out tears remembering the ones who stood by me during these tough times.

Even as i write this letter to u, My eyes are silently wet while my heart is wailing aloud.

Take Gud care of you Vamsi,

Bye
Vamsi.