Zor ka Jhatka....

Lugubriously and as usual I called up my friend who was preparing for an exam “Hey Dude …..wats up?? so hows ur prep goin on???” (once again reminding of my Flippant attitude which I wanted to change in 2009).

He replied genially “Fine buddy”.

To give my two cents on a formal note…“Don’t take this one on a lighter note…u know tat this is ur Destiny…u need to put in lot more efforts…we shall discuss about the other things after ur exam but as of now u have to face this and beat it….work Hard Buddy”.

My friend whose name instantly evokes a Sensibility sounded berserk or rather threatening as a raised fist.

“Sure Budweiser…I know that and if iam not wrong it was me who said about this to you…Now why is it that all our cohort want to exhort me …I appreciate your concern but pls for gods sake don’t make me feel despondent. Stop Spouting!!! ”

“I need those words when I was planning for my exam…to help me identify my strengths and weaknesses…but when iam actually working on my plan why have u guyz started to make me feel as if iam going on behalf of India to the Olympic games to be held tomorrow…iam already stressed up working up..iam eating ,sleeping,drinking (if at all) only with these formulaes, algorithms and stuff…”

“at this point of time all I need is some confidence to boost up my spirit. U know wat …every one who is calling me these days …says Work hard…for ur kind information iam …the saddest part is to rejuvenate myself iam going through my orkut testi’s,linked in Reco’s to bolster my confidence levels and make myself comfortable that I MADE IT earlier …I SHALL DO IT NOW….unfortunately the ones who spoke so gud abt me online are not in a situation to make me realize those strengths physically”

I was broken to tears when he referred to tat orkut and linked in testi’s…yeah I wrote an awesome testi flaunting my vocab…and today I feel what I wrote was more of an Obituary note rather than a Testi….just to let the world know how kind I amLL…

I was shattered to know How Innocuous – seeming words can wound. All I could do was atone for my ignorance and become a channel for him to vent out.

First lesson learnt in 2009, Its quite easy to show the world that u concern about ur family/frend/loved ones but to make that person feel that he/she is the best…..its not just saying Gud or Best abt them infront of others…but to make them realize that.

Don’t pester them with the Due dates, petty things when they are going to a Battle but DO REMIND them of their previous battle that they fought Valorously and wat key role did this person play to WIN the Battle.

And never impugn their Prep by reminding them that this would be the End of their World….bechaaara with the amt of harangue I showered upon him, he might have been thinking what if things don’t happen the way he planned to..Will he be ostracized from this world for this act of his for not making…he is already in a Consternation and added to it were my pernicious comments…

Rehman’s words reverberate in my ear …

“Lookin' for the answers

To all the questions

In my life

Will I be alone

Will you be there

By my side”

“Say what you wanna say now

But keep your hearts open

Be what you wanna be now

Let's heal the confusion

Pray for me brother”